June 12, 2005

Daddy2's doing fair. He's still taking the new chemo treatments, the shots,and eating anything he can get his hands on! *laughs*
He's not gaining much weight, but he still just keeps on going...always on the tractor
doing something around the yard, going here and there by himself and such an inspiration to all who know him,
see him and especially to us who Love him!

He does stay tired a lot, sleeps alot and has good days and bad, but is steady fighting and doing what he has in his power to keep on
keeping on! My youngest sister, even tho she's 35, is spoiled rotten! lol!

Mom keeps telling her our Daddy did it, but she squatted down beside Daddy2 and
said she wanted to ask him a question. His eyes just light up if we need to ask him anything! :-)
She said "Daddy, you remember when you and Mom started dating? You met at that place called "Haystack"
Daddy2 said "Yes". She said "Do you remember me being mad because Mom was going out with you and leaving me?"
He said "Yes". She said "And do you remember what you did?" He said "I bought you a nintendo".
She said "Right, now the next weekend, when I found ya'll were going out again,
I figured, well that worked last time.........so gonna pout again and see what happens. So, what did you do that time?"
He said "I bought you games for that nintendo". She said "right. Now, who spoiled me?" Daddy2 said "I give! I did it!"
LOL! He still has a wonderful sense of humor that nothing can take away!
Daddy2 - you're such a joy to us! I love you dear, sweet man!

June 28, 2005

Just received word from my sister that Daddy2's lungs are shutting down. The doctor talked to him
today but he won't tell Mom or any of us what he said. Mom's going to try to listen when he talks to his Son and Daughter tonight.
We have no idea if the doctor gave him a few days, weeks or what! We just know it's near the end for this loving man and are trying to take it a day at a time!
My heart is breaking because I can't even imagine living without him in our lives! All I can do is pray and ask God to please not let him suffer anymore than he already is.
Can't write anymore right now. Will try to when find out exactly what he was told.
Hang in there Daddy2! I love you so much!!

August 22/05

Daddy2 and Mom went back to GCC last week and found out his white bloodcount was high, so dr. put him on antibiotics and ran another catscan with dye. He got results last week and found the reason his bloodcount was so high is because the cancer drugs are fighting the cancer! :D Dr. thought he might have pneumonia, but he didn't. Good news, but he's still having to take all these meds which make him feel bad, but he has good days too!

August 28

Well, Daddy2 and Mom went back to GCC where they drew a lot of fluid off his lungs. They ran a catscan and found a tumor in his hip. Going to start treatments on it, but good news is, it's not in the bone, it's just between the bone and joint. He's doing real well and has been having more good days than bad, so that's a wonderful sign! :D

October 18th, 2005

Talked to Mom this morning and Daddy2 is just not doing well at all. He's getting where he just sits in his chair with his head layed back with a blank stare. Breathing is really bad and doctor is very concerned about that. They're gone back to GCC today and not sure if they'll put him in hospital or what. All we can do is pray. Makes me want to put off my surgery because I just HAVE to be there for him and Mom through what may be his last days.
I've had people tell me he's lived a long life, a good life and so on, but that may be so, but it doesn't make it any easier knowing we'll lose him in such a horrible way! It doesn't make it any less upsetting. It might be easier if it wasn't such a mean, ugly, hateful disease that drains the life right out of a person right before your eyes. I HATE cancer!
Our Heavenly Father, I come to you again today to ask your guidance, to grant me the patience, strength and undying faith in You to get through this awful time with Daddy2, and to know it is Your Will no matter what happens. I ask You to hold us in your Loving Arms and give us the strength to get through this. I ask You, Precious Lord to please take Daddy2 to be with You with as little suffering as is Your will. Lord, I ask You to help him breathe easier until he takes his last breath. Only You Dear Lord, has the power to do these things I ask. And Lord, please let him be with us through another birthday and Christmas. Just one more Lord is all we ask, if it's Your will. I thank your Lord for allowing us the time we've had with him, when the doctors said he wouldn't be here this long. Only You dear Lord, are the only Physician that knows how long he has. I ask these things in Jesus, Your Precious Son's Name, dear Lord.
Amen